As life progresses, I feel like I tend to take more steps back than forward. My most recent dilemma? Where do I go from here?

I think giving 17 thru 23 year old's the power to decide their fate, is well, very dangerous. I'm almost 20. I have absolutely no direction in life. Who knows what they want to do at 20? I want to be young. Explore the world. See the creation God has given us. But instead, I'm working a full-time and a part-time job trying to make ends meet and hoping that along the way I figure it out.

If there was a manual to life, it would sound something like this:

"Chapter 18, Big Decisions pg. 178

What do you want to do with your life? There's so many options! Here's a list of options for you to look at! But be careful what you pick. Make sure it's something you want to do for the rest of your life."

How helpful? I'm stuck in this rut of not know what to do with myself? Do I do what I want? Do I do what is best for those around me? Do I do what would benefit me now, or in the future?

So many questions. So many options.

When I look down the list of occupations I have to choose from, I'm overwhelmed. What if I chose the wrong one? What if God had something better for me if I would've chosen to go to college?

When I let these thoughts spiral through my mind, I think of Esther 4:14, "Perhaps you were born for such a time as this."

"...for such a time is this." Have you ever thought about that. What if our parents were born in this era, and not us? How would they handle it? What if we were born in the 50s instead? How would we adapt to it? What if we were born literally any other time, day and year than we were? That would change the trajectory of our lives.

"Perhaps you were born for such a time as this," we were born to be here. I have no idea what I'm doing with my life. I work 40+ hours a week, but "for such a time is this." This life, this day, this situation is God ordained. This was handcrafted by my Savior.

Here, in this mess of decisions, is where I am meant to be. Sometimes it's easier said than done to recognize this, but God gave us options for a reason. Find something that makes you chase after God so fiercely, that you never want to stop what you're doing.

Live a life worth remembering. Live a life for Jesus.